You May Say That I'm A Dreamer ..

In my last post, I mentioned that I've been called a "dreamer". Here is what that really means:

I live life somewhere between reality and fantasy. My mind is a constant blur of "what if's", and blended with reality, I find it difficult to know where the line is drawn that separates the two.

Many people dream. Former MLB pitcher, Brian Williams, once said

"A person starts dying when they stop dreaming."

It's human nature, and without it, "...people parish" (Proverbs 29:18). It's what moves us to the next level. It's what spawns creativity and ingenuity. Dreaming is a healthy part of life.

Dreaming becomes problematic when it places an unrealistic perspective on truth, thus causing the "dreamer" to make poor decisions that impact those around them in a negative way.

Personally, I think I straddle this line.

I love to dream and play scenarios out ... in my mind, on paper ... in whatever way that I can get it out of my head. I love to do the research that provides me with the information that I need. I love to see it all planned out on paper (or screen). To me, this creative process is fun and exciting and it allows me the opportunity to discuss with people, pulling from their experience and knowledge base.

Yes, I have been called a "dreamer", but it held a lot of negative connotations. I had great dreams of following music as a career, but was called a "dreamer" and told things like, "you can't make a living doing that..." from people that I respected and looked up to. I was told the same types of things about becoming an animator for Walt Disney, or moving my family so that I could go to seminary... I didn't do those things either.

In my life I've dreamed a lot of dreams. To date, I have achieved few if any of them. Part of my quandary is that I've stopped allowing myself to dream--it's been many years now. I still go through the motions when my mind gets set on something, but there is no emotional attachment. I can't. It's too painful.

.: SELAH :.